Never Been that type of person

I don't like asking people for help or having them around when I am feeling helpless and weak. For some reason yesterday wasn't like that. I opened up, I broke down in someone arms. Thats not me, That has never been me, and I told myself that would never be me.  I run away from people or put a smile on and tell them everything is going to be okay, Yesterday wasn't like that. Yesterday hit to hard, was to real and out of my control. I don't know or want to begin to think what would of wen ton if I was alone yesterday. Thank you for being there for me, every hug, kiss, and smile helped me more then you know, with all the thoughts and feelings going threw my head you helped me grab control. I don't know what I would of done without you yesterday. Im going on and on about the same thing, but I really want you to know how much it means to me that you were there for me when I realized I was all alone. Having to deal with my random..ness.. I know its only going to get harder ( lets hope not) but we both know how bad this is. I loved you for being there when it felt like no one else was.
You mean the world to me, thank you again