I'm Not Ready to say good bye

I have never had to say good bye to some one that means this much to me, I'm not sure how to feel or what to think. My mind is running wild and I can't control what happens next . My body feel cold. I can't stop myself from crying. I can;t stop myself from wishing I was there. I'm not ready to say goodbye I'm not ready to let go. MY mothers voice keeps replying in my head over and over again, This morning was the worst morning hearing my mother cry. Running out of my bed to her side. I have never felt so sacred before, going o sleep my last thought was she is going to be okay, she is going to pull threw, and now this.

I love you... But I can't say good bye just yet, not like this.