This world is not now, and will never be, a fair place. Things happen and people like to try to figure out why. They use religion or philosophy to attempt to explain what they cannot understand, but there is no explanation. There are only events and the lessons we take from them.

I have tried so hard to take a lesson from certain things in my past. I may have found little nuggets of wisdom in things that have happened, but that doesn’t make it any easier to deal with. Right now, the present is digging up the past. Things that I would rather push to the back of my mind are being stirred up again, and at the most inopportune moment. The knowledge that I have only myself to blame for the path which my life took makes this even more frustrating. No, frustrating isn’t the word. To be honest, I really don’t know what the word I’m looking for is.

My problem isn’t moving on. My problem is this moment and the things it has stirred up.