"You think that I don't know what's going on

Cause you're always home alone

And I'm always out of town

You need to stop trying to play me

Cause you can't even fade me

I know you're messing around baby"

112 It's over now

I knew he said Fade, not faze me

trying to fight the bitch.. I knew it!!

-_- but it makes me laugh

Untitled from Kristianna L. on Vimeo.

Fuck Ties.. rockin a bow tie :)
LMAO

OR?

OR?




Fuck everything Else.
PROM!!! Is in 2months
I got my ticket and My dates Ticket Today
Stoked!!!

Affected by the unaffected

I ran wit what God planted in my heart and I understand it
To be the bring the light to the dark, breathe some life in this art
This must be the truth (why?) cuz we keep marchin on (true)
The truth lay the foundation of what we rockin on (true)
You can't see it if you blind but we will always prevail (true)
Life is like the open sea, the truth is the wind in our sail
And in the end, our names is on the lips of dying men
If ever crushed in the earth, we always rise again
When the words of lying men sound lush like the sound of a violin
The truth is there, it's just the heart you gotta find it in

Blahh shit sucks

This world is not now, and will never be, a fair place. Things happen and people like to try to figure out why. They use religion or philosophy to attempt to explain what they cannot understand, but there is no explanation. There are only events and the lessons we take from them.

I have tried so hard to take a lesson from certain things in my past. I may have found little nuggets of wisdom in things that have happened, but that doesn’t make it any easier to deal with. Right now, the present is digging up the past. Things that I would rather push to the back of my mind are being stirred up again, and at the most inopportune moment. The knowledge that I have only myself to blame for the path which my life took makes this even more frustrating. No, frustrating isn’t the word. To be honest, I really don’t know what the word I’m looking for is.

My problem isn’t moving on. My problem is this moment and the things it has stirred up.

We all go through this problem. We make friends with people, we make quarrels with people, we do things, we don’t do things, we read books, we counsel with others, we watch informative shows and lectures; all with the hopes that we would one day wake up to the great epiphany of knowing who we are as people. The greatest mistake with all this is the fact that we are too busy trying so meticulously to find ourselves through other people, when perhaps the answer is in plain view, yourself. You cannot find your personal reflection through other people’s words or actions. Breath for a moment and find yourself through your own train of thought. Your greatest inspiration is yourself, stop constantly looking at others for the answers.

R.I.P
Roger..
speechless by emotion,

I'm going to miss this Kid, He was the type of kid where no matter what was going on, he knew how to make you smile. When shit went left he made it right. That one kid that was annoying as fuck, but couldn't stay mad at him for More then 5minutes. His crazy "Hey Girl Hey"or moaning some ones name when the class went quite. The kid could dance too, trying to get everyone to salsa when ever he was around. The kid would of one biggest flirt, there wasn't one girl at this school that he didn't talk to.Haha, school doesn't feel the same without you Kid.


2-17-09
Always remain in are hearts

I’m an unfinished piece of art. I always will be, because my palette is always changing. Somedays you’ll see this. Other days, I’ll drink my colours away. To capture me candid, you’d see a canvas of truth. In these moments, you are the artist. Not me. You’ll see me in many shades, many blends. And through the eyes of each observer, I’ll be in a different light. At the centre of it all lies a cryptic mind, but a heart with a level playing field. It evens it out. But the tones to my existence bare no reflection of the inside. Sometimes. Because I bottle it up. There are days where my paint wont be wasted, for fear of revealing my true masterpiece.

Stoked!

Got my Fish Eye
:)

http://kristianna.tumblr.com/
Starting to love this shit

Make me smile :)

Nikon Fisheye lenses

I still think Cupid is stupid

People will love you and people will hate you. They will pretend to understand you and pretend to give a damn. Sometimes, it will be genuine. People will hurt you and knock you down. People are like that. But the sun still rises and the world still turns. The only thing that you can do is make the most out of the time that you have, instead of wasting it on other people’s perceptions of you. Give all that you can give and love the life you are in. If you can be happy with yourself, nothing else will matter.

Lemony Snicket

There are some who say that you should forgive everyone, even the people who have disappointed you immeasurably. There are others who say you should not forgive anyone, and should stomp off in a huff no matter how many times they apologize. Of these two philosophies, the second one is of course much more fun, but it can also grow exhausting to stomp off in a huff every time someone has disappointed you, as everyone disappoints everyone eventually, and one can’t stomp off in a huff every minute of the day.

If you try to avoid every instance of peer pressure you will end up without peers whatsoever, and the trick is to succumb to enough pressure that you do not drive your peers away, but not so much that you end up in a situation in which you are dead or otherwise uncomfortable. This is a difficult trick, and most people never master it, and end up dead or uncomfortable at least once during their lives.

Shyness is a curious thing, because like quicksand, it can strike people at any time, and also like quicksand, it usually makes its victims look down.

Of all the ridiculous expressions people use - and people use a great many ridiculous expressions - one of the most ridiculous is “No news is good news.” “No news is good news” simply means that if you don’t hear from someone, everything is probably fine, and you can see at once why this expression makes such little sense, because everything being fine is only one of many, many reasons why someone may not contact you. Perhaps they are tied up. Maybe they are surrounded by fierce weasels, or perhaps they are wedged tightly between two refrigerators and cannot get themselves out. The expression might well be changed to “No news is bad news,” except that people may not be able to contact you because they have just been crowned king or are competing in a gymnastics tournament. The point is that there is no way to know why someone has not contacted you, until they contact you and explain themselves. For this reason, the sensible expression would be ” No news is no news, ” except that it is so obvious it is hardly an expression at all.

Stealing of course, is a crime, and a very impolite thing to do. But like most impolite things, it is excusable under certain circumstances. Stealing is not excusable if, for instance, you are in a museum and you decide that a certain painting would look better in your house, and you simply grab the painting and take it there. But if you were very, very hungry, and you had no way of obtaining money, it might be excusable to grab the painting, take it to your house, and eat it.

My mind is lost in this labyrinth of uncertainty built from questions, options and feelings. There are too many ways to go, it is constantly changing so there is no way out. The walls morph into new shapes without warning. The pathways of love or lust or life all have over lapping negatives. I am rendered helpless and unfocused. Non-functioning on any level. It gets worse as the day wears on and I have gotten nothing done; building my mounting pile for the days to come, making a daunting task worse. I can’t find my way and the area to be navigated grows larger and larger. The end of this exists, I can feel it in my soul, but it is no where in sight and growing further away

This picture sums up my current state of mind perfectly. I am following a road of uncertainty into a future that will surely gleam. Still I have a great deal to get through before I reach my destination, wherever the hell that is. I can see it far off in the distance; vague, yet promising. If I just take one step at a time, I will find myself surrounded by more beauty than I could ever ask for. Along the way, I hope to come across the most brilliant people in the world. I will chase these cars until they lead me to adventures that I have been waiting for. Emerald cities wait for me beyond the poppy fields, and I have surely paid my dues amongst those poison petals. I will find myself a girl with ruby slippers or a tin man with a ticking heart. The road to all these things is the color of fear; yellow as a lion’s mane. I know that once the first step has been taken, everything else will fall into place.

Still, sometimes I wish that a twister would just drop me on someone’s doorstep; far away, where no one knows me.

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Ahh I Can't wait till this is all over..
I ned to be out of this house.. I feel so blank...

Not much else to say....

Today I have opportunities. I can set a goal and make it happen. I can create plans and watch them unfold. Today I have hope. I no longer go to sleep with despair in my heart and misery on my mind. Today I can be free. I am not a slave to my vices as was once the story. Today I can honestly say that I am happy with my life and the direction that it is taking. For once, I can utter those words and mean them.

Nothing last forever, Hopefully this feeling wont fully go away.keep my head up, Not letting stupid shit get to me, there is shit I want to get of my chest, but I'm breaking normally for now, I feel Silly for being such an addict for that kitty cat (I love that line) I have to stop caring about others before or more then I do myself.

I'm repeating myself from my last post
Oh Well

So If there not willing to change, then fuck them. I will change, I'm starting to figure out what matters most. And I'm done with putting people before me. I always felt that If I gave you my all you would do the same. Slap in the face, not everyone is like that, and that's what makes this world great. No one is the same, I love my personality and making people happy and love everything around them has always been my reason. People have always said you have to love yourself before others. -_- I should listen L0L, I have to learn to love myself, learn to feel confident about shit, Not put myself down and feel like I'm not good enough for any one. Shit no one is good enough for me. (ha ha just kidding) I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. And as of yesterday the conversation I had with someone I realized how thats not the way I want live. SO your reading about a brand new person :), No more putting my head down when no one is looking, no more self doughting myself, no more of that bull shit. I am trying to be the best person I can be. I'm ready to look myself in the mirrow and give my self a high five, Feel proud of who I am, and the kind of person I am..

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

Look at me, look at me
hands in the air like it's good to be
ALIVE

I know you used to watch me
Rock Gucci and Versace
But now im back to my skater roots
Still got friends in them gator boots
What's up with them hater dudes?
Ma' hating is ok with you?
Why, cuz they drive in them fancy cars
Look, I could ride you on my handle bars
Of my BMX baby
Im creative with turrets baby....


I WIsh this was all over, Or I had Fairly Odd Parents and could go back in time and change all of this B.S

ahhh I miss my family more then anything right now

M. Scott Peck:
The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.



Thank You, My Home Away from Home
That True Family feeling.

In my shoes my toes are busted,
My kitchen says my bread is molded,
I got a good job at the dollar store,
One foot in the hole, one foot gettin' deeper,
with a broken mirror and a blown out speaker
And I ain't got much else to lose.
I'm faded, flat busted;
I've been jaded I've been dusted.
I know that I've seen better days.
One foot in the hole, one foot gettin' deeper,
Crank it to eleven, blow another speaker and
I ain't got, I ain't got much to loose
'Cause

(Chorus)
I've seen better days I've been star of many plays
I've seen better days and the bottom drops out.
I've seen better days I've been star of many plays
I've seen better days and the bottom drops out.

Now My cup's filled up with five buck wine
I find myself here all the time
Another rip in the glass another chip in my tooth
Rained on I've been stained on
Found another goat I tried to put the blame on
And now I'm steppin on all the cracks
So I guess there ain't no use
'Cause

(Chorus)
I've seen better days I've been star of many plays
I've seen better days and the bottom drops out.
I've seen better days I've been star of many plays
I've seen better days and the bottom drops out.

Woman: "Do you like my gucci bag?"

That's beautiful, beautiful

Check it check it check it out,

I'm bent like glass second hand like glory,
Missed the bus but I'm in no hurry,
Molasses fast no business born,
One foot in the hole, one foot getting deeper,
Crank it to eleven, blow another speaker and
I aint got i aint got much to lose
'Cause

(Chorus)
I've seen better days I've been star of many plays
I've seen better days and the bottom drops out.
I've seen better days I've been star of many plays
I've seen better days,
I've seen better days,
I know that i've seen better days,
(the bottom drops out)
I've been the star, of so many plays,
(and the bottom drops out)
Walked on the edge with that hobo way.
(the bottom drops out)
'Cause I know I know that I've seen better days
(and the bottom drops out)

Now I'm real thirsty...

:) This to will pass

Cuz in the End is was alll about the Endz..

How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one's culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light.



So at the end it makes you think of the beginning.
(It's that feeling of being alone in a house full of people, I have no one to talk to)
When I get a phone haha that will all change.



P.S I Missed you guys during super bowl!!! My house was all empty haha No hot WIngs no nothing hahah maan nothing seems right anymore L0L